The Story Goes On

So, after a long weekend with the in-laws, the knock on the door came again this morning. The pastor's wife (M) reiterated what she had said to me on Friday afternoon, but to my partner (J) this time. M was obviously upset, and was trying to take all the blame herself. We weren't having that - M acted out of love and acceptance inviting us, and was now shielding others who could not love or accept.

Then, about an hour later, M came round again. We were now welcome to attend.

I just feel numb, really, like being hit repeatedly on the same bruise, or getting a dead arm. Do I want to go? Not really, not now - but I may feel differently later.

J has become all militant. On Saturday she said she'd emailed the leaders of the small group she is currently a part of saying that she'd be taking a break from going. She didn't sleep well on Saturday night, and on Sunday morning sent a long email to various members of the "offending" church just pointing out exactly what was being said in their name. Today she's spent most of the morning composing emails. She's doing what I am - writing out her feelings. Her campaign seems to have become "teach the church that prejudice is simply unacceptable". I don't think she'll succeed.